Throughout my life so far I have always tried to do what is 'expected of me'. I went to university and carried on with a course that I didn't really love and was struggling with. And I have always been conscious of what I should be doing instead of what I want to be doing. Its got to the point where I don't even really know what I want to be doing and If I do follow what I want to be doing can I even achieve it?!
Recently though things have changed and I have started to think, "Look I only live once lets go for things". I am going to try and take more risks step out of my comfort zone. For a really long time I have wanted to take my ceramics to the next level, as in maybe start to sell my work. However I have been struggling as to what is the best way of gaining more knowledge and practise with ceramics. After an agonising over whether to go on a two year course or join an open access studio called Turning Earth, I have decided to start up at Turning Earth and see where that goes. Its a decision I did not take lightly - as my family and boyfriend will agree with - I chewed their ear off trying to make the prefect decision.
Things I have learnt when making decisions - firstly to have confidence in myself and my ability to know what is best for me.
Secondly to follow my gut instinct and to go with 'what feels right' which may sound a bit cliche but I really helped me to relax into the decisions I've made.
Thirdly try not to think to much about the decision in terms of 'what if's' in a negative way. Think positively. There is no right or wrong decision. If I want to, in the future I can do the course, or maybe an apprenticeship or internship will come up. Either way I want to not put as much pressure on myself and just chill- with enough grit and determination goals can be achieved.
Jeans: Urban Outfitters BDG
Shoes: Vans
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